| Rumor Mill |
[Mar. 6th, 2008|02:38 pm] |
Rumor Mill Special Report:
Santa Cruz resident RC will be attending Toronto's Gay Pride Festival this Summer as part of the entourage of Lass Bass, former member of boy band NSYNC. The two were seen cavorting at Out Magazine's Black and White Ball this past February. The notoriously elusive RC was mum when questioned about the upcoming event but did say that she "has always been a huge fan of NSYNC and Lance Bass" and would even "follow him (Bass) to outerspace if he asked". |
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| New Year Resolutions 2nd edition |
[Jan. 1st, 2008|08:42 am] |
New Year Resolutions 2nd edition:
1) Spend more time with NT
2) Admit to NT that I want to be "more than friends"
3) Call NT every other day instead of every five minutes
4) Help NT with her personal hygiene
5) Stop writing love poems to NT and then tearing them up
6) Put NT love poems in a special NT laminated binder
7) Wash my car
8) Lose 25 lbs
9) Develop a five-year plan for special events to share with NT
10)Take NT on a picnic |
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| New Year Resolutions |
[Jan. 1st, 2008|08:31 am] |
New Year Resolutions:
1) no alcohol before noon
2) stop smoking
3) get a job
4) lose 20 lbs
5) shower every other day instead of every other week
6) buy a tooth brush and use it
7) finally tell RC that I love her
8) take a pottery class
9) learn the tango
10)start wearing clothes when I leave the house |
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| Annoying |
[Jun. 21st, 2007|10:17 pm] |
I was thinking about annoying people today. And I want to make it clear that I do not consider myself exempt from annoying behavior. However, I do admit that I can be annoying. I own it. I think that there are self-aware annoying people, they know they're annoying but enjoy it or can't help it, and then there are the people who are clueless about how annoying they are. They continue annoying oblivious to subtle or direct hints.
Here is a type of annoying behavior:
1) Fishing for compliments. Definition: a. Self-depreciating statements or behavior with the goal of receiving compliments or encouragement or b. asking directly what someone thinks about your hair, project, dance, etc. when you only want to hear that it was fantastic.
Example:
Lola: Oh Sandy, I look so awful in this dress!
Sandy: No you don't. You look great. Really. Why would you think that you look awful? Cause you look great!
Lola: I don't think Alvin likes me anymore. He didn't want to walk me to class the other day.
Sandy: Oh, don't be silly Lola. Alvin is crazy about you! He's probably just busy and stressed cause of finals. You are so pretty!
Alternative Scenario:
Lola: Oh Sandy, I look so awful in this dress!
Sandy: Yeah you do actually. Ok bye! |
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| Chautauqua |
[May. 8th, 2007|07:25 pm] |
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I wanted to post this before I forgot. Ruji's and my play, "Dogs and Chats" will be debuting in little over a week. It's goes from May 17th to May 20th. It is the second show in Chautauqua Program A which begins at 7pm, meaning our play is slated for about 8pm. It is being staged in 2nd Stage at Theater Arts. I want to invite all our friends as well as friends of friends. Also, if you're going to be there on a certain night, let me know. I will be in the audience and I will want to say hello. |
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| weekend |
[Apr. 22nd, 2007|05:59 pm] |
So while everyone and their mom was at APE or out of town I stayed in Santa Cruz. Last night, Saturday night, I hit the town. Went to Borders with roomie Karen and read all the magazines I don't want to spend money on. I read some articles in "Out" magazine and apparently Anderson Cooper is gay. He's a silver haired fox! But the best part of the magazine was the photos it had in the back. There were full page color photos of cut men in underwear wearing buttons like "fag" and "i suck balls". This one picture had a guy wearing this fur scarf thing and then pulling down his underwear to expose his pubes. Get it? Fur downstairs and upstairs!
Then Karen and I went to Natural Bridges and walked around. The seaweed looks scary in the dark, like tangled hair or sunken faces. I love the ocean but at night I think it is scary. We were only on the beach for a little while when a beach patrol car came by and the officer told us we had to leave. The background of my computer screen is a baby seal nursing from its mother. I took the picture a year ago when I went to San Diego for Spring break. There is a cove in La Jolla that has been taken over by seals. When we were on the beach Karen asked me if there were any seals around. She was concerned because "seals are aggressive". I've never been attacked by seal but I know enough to keep my distance. The most aggressive seals are elephant seals. They can completely crush you. No joke! |
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| sleep |
[Apr. 12th, 2007|12:27 am] |
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2 am is my new bedtime. It sucks. |
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| Spring Chickens Lay Some Tough-Ass Eggs |
[Apr. 1st, 2007|09:36 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Porter Apt. | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  distressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | TV | ] |
I have some cool stuff ahead this quarter- Chautauqua and QFS. But Chautauqua is causing me extreme distress. I'm tired of getting information barely before deadlines and dates in which my presence is necessary. Director? No idea how that's going to work out. I'm frustrated we didn't get one off the bat, that Ruji and I had to find our own director and he may or may not be committed- full time? part time? not at all? Who knows? I don't want Ruji and I to have to do all the directing ourselves and the potential ultimatum of us directing or not having our play in Chautauqua sucks. I'm uncomfortable not knowing how this thing is going to go.
Ruji and I wrote the script for our QFS skit "Dawn of the Dykes". I think it's good. I wish I had started creative writing earlier in college. It makes me happy. I'm sad that writing funny skits and plays isn't a realistic career. Ironically, I wanted to do the play partly (only partly) to prove to S that I have my own interests and passions. Now, at what should be an exciting time, I'm feeling emotionally distressed. I'm still very angry and heartbroken and resent this fact, which makes it worse. These feelings are compounded by the doom I feel regarding looming graduation, my uncertainties about where I'll be living, what I'll be doing, and the sense of loss I'm already experiencing- loss of my relationship, loss of place, loss of the college lifestyle which,has been perfect considering my love of learning and my disdain of 9 to 5 type "work", and of course loss of the social network that I've built here. "Social network" sounds cold but I've been really passionate about meeting people and forming friendships in college. I have this undying affection for people no matter how many times I've been screwed over, which is plenty, and I know I'll feel the loss of not being around certain people here in Santa Cruz very strongly.
I guess you can just call me whiney pants, or Applebottom if you're so inclined. I prefer Coco. |
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| QFS and and Chautauqua!!! |
[Mar. 13th, 2007|02:41 pm] |
So Ruji's and my play got selected for Chautauqua. All you theater peeps or wannabes (like me) should think about being involved in Chautauqua, specifically our play. I've heard from someone who was involved last year that it's fun. I'm also auditioning to act because I was born for the stage.
As if that weren't enough, Ruji and I have been selected to direct a QFS piece. Our piece is a skit about a naive lesbian freshman who comes to UCSC and is faced with a new lesbian culture. We need people to be involved, like play part of the Dyke posse, or the freshman, or the bi friend, or the fake attention-seeking bi girl, or the boyfriend or if you want to help out with the staging, props, and shit that'd be cool too. So if you're a queer or wannabe in QFS or both come to the meeting this Thursday at the I-lounge 8pm and sign up to be in our piece. No experience required, just the desire.Pleeease. I'm talking to you! |
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| Total Recall |
[Aug. 19th, 2006|01:58 pm] |
It's been a long time since I've updated my journal. That's because I've been busy being incredibly popular and goodlooking. I hate my office job and I'm tired of giving tours but I'm obligated to stay until the end of September. This fall I'll be busy as Porter College's bitch. I feel like I made a mistake deciding to live on campus again but it's too late and I'll survive. I have a car now so it'll be easy to get off campus and into the fabulous world that is the city of Santa Cruz, although for many of us, the city consists almost entirely in the three blocks of downtown and Cafe Pergolesi. I'm trying to get some ppl to go to The Ugly Mug coffee shop instead of Perg's right now. I heard it's like Perg's but it has ppl of color. It's also queer like Perg's. Does anyone want to run away to Canada and marry me? I think it would be fun and we wouldn't have to consummate the marriage. Cheers. I mostly want presents like blenders and bagel slicers.
Lastly, I have to get this off my chest: Natasha Terekhova is a terrible puta. I hate her. I don't ever want to see her gross face again. She should put her face in a toilet bowl. I'm not kidding. This is not a joke. I'm seriously serious. |
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| various |
[Aug. 1st, 2006|05:01 am] |
- tucan= Mexican gopher and I think that's cool
gopher's should go into outer space, they'd look really cute in a little space suit and helmut but i doubt they'd like it, those suits can be constricting
- A friend of mine is Russian and she showed me some baby pictures of her and she's wearing a blue snowsuit with an orange turtleneck and she looks exactly like she's wearing a spacesuit.I thought it was funny because of the Russian space program and that maybe the Russians were sending their babies into space.
- I watched people popping pimples on the internet the other day, am I sicko? If I am then someone else is too.
P.S. I am not sexually aroused by watching pimple popping!!! In fact, it makes me queesy.
- There is someone in my life who deserves a big "Fuck you!" and there is someone else who I wish I could just tell to "fuck off" whenever she's being rude, and she's stupid for not knowing how rude she is
- Do you think if you were in another body you would still be you? or would the other body allow you to act differently and be a different person? I'd like to try out another body and I also wouldn't mind being me as my younger self and totally doing the things I was afraid to do |
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| Work?? |
[Jul. 25th, 2006|09:57 am] |
I'm sitting here at work with nothing to do and I'm not really complaining. I came in early today because I wanted tomorrow off.I'm going all the way to Sacramento to watch team tennis with my dad. I told my boss I'd be coming in and she said she would leave a list of things for me to do but she didn't. Now I get to surf the internet. I already looked at some images of sweet back tattoos although I have no intention of getting a humongous tattoo that covers my entire back. Shit, I thought I heard my boss but it was just somebody else. Even though I have no work assigned I don't think I should get paid for updating my live journal, which, ironically,I hardly ever do. Let's see: I've watched four gay movies in three days! A couple were pretty good. I really liked "Desert Hearts" and "Saving Face". The first was made in 1985 and while the story seemed old, an uptight professional woman going through a divorce falls for a young,wild-at-heart lesbian in Reno, I thought it realistically showed how hard it is to be a lesbian in a straight world, or at least it touched on that instead of pretending that being gay or straight is all the same and both are beautiful and blah,blah,blah. Both the woman were good-looking but it wasn't just glamorous femme chicks getting it on, like in "The L Word" for example. The second movie was a romantic comedy and had the obligatory scene in which someone is chased down at an airport but it was still a cool movie cause it was specific to Asian-American culture and the main character had a relationship with her mom that was funny because it really resonated with me. They have a generational gap going on among other things. The only bad thing is that watching gay movies makes me think about gay sex and I just won't explain why that is a bad thing for me right now. In a few minutes I'll be filing for the remainder of my afternoon so I better finish my oh-so neccessary internet surfing. |
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| Meme |
[Jul. 20th, 2006|10:48 pm] |
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme. [My brilliant, sexy, better-than-human friend Ruji wrote it, not Pysetz the Dog!])
| × I would fail a drug test right now. |
× I know a sociopath. |
✓ I have cheated on a test. (and got caught and paid for it so I'm bad cheater) |
| × I have cheated on a person I was dating. |
× I have had rape/molestation fantasies. |
× I've coerced someone into having sex after they said no. |
| × I masturbate daily. |
× I like to get revenge. |
✓ I stayed in a bad relationship because I didn't think I could do better. (does that mean I have low self esteem?) |
| ✓ I've pretended not to know stuff I learned from stalking a person online. (stalking is kind of a strong word) |
✓ I often watch the Disney channel and enjoy it. (Not anymore because I don't have TV but a couple years ago, yes.) |
× I am attracted to facial hair. |
( it goes on... ) |
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| no opinions |
[Jul. 1st, 2006|05:13 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pensive | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nope | ] |
At this point I do not have an opinion on a single thing. I went to see Superman Returns and I thought it was good. I liked the visual effects. I liked the character of Lois Lane. She was portrayed as a workaholic and very idenpendant and strong. At one point she rescues Superman from drowing which of course was an attempt by the filmmakers to update Lois's usual position as helpless damsel in distress. Here's the thing though. When I was watching the movie I was busy thinking about two girls: one who has not returned my attempts to get in touch and another who asked a favor when she usually refuses any help or acts of kindness what-so-ever. I left the movie early and missed the end. I still think I liked the movie though. It was escapist fun I thought. I also resonated with the idea of coming back from a long trip and having everything changed (this happens to Superman in the movie). I think that this is due to my discomfort with change. Life goes up and down so often. Whenever things are going well, I have a sense of doom because I know it won't last. Of course, change must occur. We'd probably die of boredom if there wasn't conflict and change but I felt bad for Superman when he wanted to recreate the type of relationship he and Lois had before he left for Krypton. I hate letting people go. I hate when the nature of a relationship changes from intimacy to distance and I put priority on maintaining closeness with people. This seems to be a bad thing. Maybe someday I'll change my mind about this. |
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| live journal for a dummy |
[Jun. 26th, 2006|08:18 pm] |
My friend convinced me to start live journal. I finally filled out my user info so now I thought I should post something. hmmm... a slow summer. I miss the old days when my folks would sign me up for summer camps and different activities. I didn't appreciate it back then of course but in these days of work and boredom and bills it would be nice to have arranged activities and play dates. It's way too common that I agree with my friends to do this and that and then the whole summer goes by and we never actually do what we said we would. Why won't someone just charter that fucking jet to Europe? Anyway, I wish I was going to day camp for people in their early twenties. There could be a drink mixing class and horse riding and sand castle building and trips to SF for cultural outings. Lovely. |
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